12th Sunday after Pentecost
August 12, 2018
Note: This was the last Sunday of Pastor Steven’s ministry at Immanuel before moving to a new call at Christ the King Lutheran Church in Windsor, CT.
35Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.”
41Then the Judeans began to complain about him because he said, “I am the bread that came down from heaven.” 42They were saying, “Is not this Jesus, the son of Joseph, whose father and mother we know? How can he now say, “I have come down from heaven’?” 43Jesus answered them, “Do not complain among yourselves. 44No one can come to me unless drawn by the Father who sent me; and I will raise that person up on the last day. 45It is written in the prophets, ‘And they shall all be taught by God.’ Everyone who has heard and learned from the Father comes to me. 46Not that anyone has seen the Father except the one who is from God; this one has seen the Father. 47“Very truly, I tell you, whoever believes has eternal life. 48I am the bread of life. 49Your ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness, and they died. 50This is the bread that comes down from heaven, so that one may eat of it and not die. 51I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Whoever eats of this bread will live forever; and the bread that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh.” – John 6:35, 41-51
Most of the Sundays for the last seven-and-a-half years, I have stood before you, held up bread and repeated for all of us the words of Jesus: “In the night in which he was betrayed, our Lord Jesus took bread, gave thanks, broke it, and gave it to his disciples.” When I hold that bread up week-after-week, I see you and the bread in the same line of vision. I see the body of Christ – in wheat and in human flesh.
A lot else happens in this community. We serve side-by-side for the sake of our neighbors. We visit the sick and grieving. We seek to learn and grow in faith and our awareness of God’s activity in scripture and in the world. We share coffee and refreshments with one another. We manage a building and a budget. But for me, as someone who hears and tastes and knows grace more powerfully and reliably at the Eucharistic table than nearly anywhere else, it is this moment every week that defines church for me – seeing the bread and seeing you.
It is this moment that somehow captures the mystery of what it means to be church together as pastor and congregation, as all of us saints of God. I am never sure how God turns our bread into something more than bread. Treatises have been written about it, but no one really understands how the power of this sacrament comes to be. As a pastor it is a holy privilege to stand at the table, hold the bread, and proclaim on behalf of all of us the words of Jesus. I have no special powers, I do no magic trick. Truth be told sometimes stray thoughts about other unrelated things float through my mind while I pray the Eucharistic prayer. But in that moment something mysterious and holy is happening by God’s power active in our having gathered together. And we are fed the bread that keeps us alive, keeps us truly living.
But no less mysterious is the way in which God gathers people together and calls them a church, transforms them into the body of Christ, makes them bread for the world. No less mysterious or holy is the ministry we do together in this community. I wish sometimes that I could gather you all in my arms and lift you up like the bread, so that you and I both might know more fully that God is doing something miraculous with us; that God is taking, blessing, breaking, and giving us; that in ways we do not understand, in ways that are beyond our doing, in ways that are beyond our abilities, God is making us church together and in doing so making love and grace known in the depth of our being and to the ends of the world.
You called me here to this place to lead you in the work of stewarding these very mysteries. And so often I have wished you could know, hoped you do know, the power of God at work in the things you have called me here to do, the power of God at work in gathered community. All of those things somehow a facet of this same mystery we meet at the table :
-There are the moments when hands are laid on the still-dripping head of the baptized to pray for the Holy Spirit, and it feels as if the pulse of God is pouring into the room.
-There are the moments when oil is traced over the cross of Christ on our foreheads with the words “receive this oil as a sign of healing in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit,” and it is as if something profound is opened and released.
-There are the moments at the end of the funeral rite when a hand is laid on the casket or urn and we commend our loved ones back to God and it is as if one can feel the embrace of God holding them close.
I remind you of these mysteries and the many, many more we have experienced together because this is the power of God exercised not by me but through all of us together. This is at least part of what Jesus means by living bread, the bread that feeds us into eternal life. God has pulled us into a great communion of saints, into a single, holy loaf which is time and time again held up to receive the blessing of God and shared for the sake of the world.
But as we talk about these beautiful images, we are aware that our hunger does return and we do face death even though we have shared the living bread. Like the Judeans who grumble against Jesus and like their ancestors before them who grumbled about miraculous bread provided daily each morning in the wilderness, we, too, are skeptical. We are skeptical perhaps that we are capable of bearing the divine. We are skeptical perhaps that despite our own faults and those of our neighbors that we can still be church together. We are skeptical that in the face of all the pain in the world these moments of grace are enough. We are skeptical that God can hold us together through change and through conflict and through fear and through pain. We need the bread again and again to renew us and resurrect us.
I think too often we forget – I forget – what a blessed miracle happens here every Sunday. Yes bread is made for us the body of Christ. Water becomes a womb for rebirth. But before the first note is played or the first word is spoken, God is gathering us up, preparing to lift us high and proclaim us holy and make us food for the world.
And it is not our perfection, but rather our brokenness which allows us to become food for one another and bread for the life of the world. It is the ways in which we allow our humanity to be laid out for one another, the ways in which we come to terms with our failings as much as our successes, the ways in which we name our pain, illness, and grief which God uses in this holy mystery. It is the persistence of God’s feeding through times of exhaustion and pain, anxiety and fear, anger and hardship, through death itself that makes this bread the one that feeds us into eternal life.
And so one more time among you I will hold up bread, and I will behold all of you gathered around the table, and I invite you to see in that bread yourselves gathered up, blessed, broken and given for the sake of the life of the world.
We give thanks for the meals we have shared together and we trust in the God who keeps feeding us again and again. There will be more meals at this table, more moments of holy mystery. There will be more meals at other tables in the years to come. But it is this one meal that connects us, bound together, one body, one bread, made holy by God’s love.
Wherever you find the bread of life in years to come, do not forget this: that you are God’s beloved. That you are precious to God. That no matter what the world says and no matter what you say to yourself, you are a valued child of God. I pray that you know that life-giving truth deep within you when you touch the water, when you eat the bread, when you gather in community together in this place. And I trust that God will keep feeding you with that truth and ushering you into eternal life, now and forever.
-Pastor Steven Wilco