Behold the Living Bread

 

12th Sunday after Pentecost
August 12, 2018

Note: This was the last Sunday of Pastor Steven’s ministry at Immanuel before moving to a new call at Christ the King Lutheran Church in Windsor, CT.

35Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.”
41Then the Judeans began to complain about him because he said, “I am the bread that came down from heaven.” 42They were saying, “Is not this Jesus, the son of Joseph, whose father and mother we know? How can he now say, “I have come down from heaven’?” 43Jesus answered them, “Do not complain among yourselves. 44No one can come to me unless drawn by the Father who sent me; and I will raise that person up on the last day. 45It is written in the prophets, ‘And they shall all be taught by God.’ Everyone who has heard and learned from the Father comes to me. 46Not that anyone has seen the Father except the one who is from God; this one has seen the Father. 47“Very truly, I tell you, whoever believes has eternal life. 48I am the bread of life. 49Your ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness, and they died. 50This is the bread that comes down from heaven, so that one may eat of it and not die. 51I am the living bread that came down from heaven. Whoever eats of this bread will live forever; and the bread that I will give for the life of the world is my flesh.” – John 6:35, 41-51

Most of the Sundays for the last seven-and-a-half years, I have stood before you, held up bread and repeated for all of us the words of Jesus: “In the night in which he was betrayed, our Lord Jesus took bread, gave thanks, broke it, and gave it to his disciples.” When I hold that bread up week-after-week, I see you and the bread in the same line of vision. I see the body of Christ – in wheat and in human flesh.

A lot else happens in this community. We serve side-by-side for the sake of our neighbors. We visit the sick and grieving. We seek to learn and grow in faith and our awareness of God’s activity in scripture and in the world. We share coffee and refreshments with one another. We manage a building and a budget. But for me, as someone who hears and tastes and knows grace more powerfully and reliably at the Eucharistic table than nearly anywhere else, it is this moment every week that defines church for me – seeing the bread and seeing you.

It is this moment that somehow captures the mystery of what it means to be church together as pastor and congregation, as all of us saints of God. I am never sure how God turns our bread into something more than bread. Treatises have been written about it, but no one really understands how the power of this sacrament comes to be. As a pastor it is a holy privilege to stand at the table, hold the bread, and proclaim on behalf of all of us the words of Jesus. I have no special powers, I do no magic trick. Truth be told sometimes stray thoughts about other unrelated things float through my mind while I pray the Eucharistic prayer. But in that moment something mysterious and holy is happening by God’s power active in our having gathered together. And we are fed the bread that keeps us alive, keeps us truly living.

But no less mysterious is the way in which God gathers people together and calls them a church, transforms them into the body of Christ, makes them bread for the world. No less mysterious or holy is the ministry we do together in this community. I wish sometimes that I could gather you all in my arms and lift you up like the bread, so that you and I both might know more fully that God is doing something miraculous with us; that God is taking, blessing, breaking, and giving us; that in ways we do not understand, in ways that are beyond our doing, in ways that are beyond our abilities, God is making us church together and in doing so making love and grace known in the depth of our being and to the ends of the world.

You called me here to this place to lead you in the work of stewarding these very mysteries. And so often I have wished you could know, hoped you do know, the power of God at work in the things you have called me here to do, the power of God at work in gathered community. All of those things somehow a facet of this same mystery we meet at the table            :

-There are the moments when hands are laid on the still-dripping head of the baptized to pray for the Holy Spirit, and it feels as if the pulse of God is pouring into the room.

-There are the moments when oil is traced over the cross of Christ on our foreheads with the words “receive this oil as a sign of healing in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit,” and it is as if something profound is opened and released.

-There are the moments at the end of the funeral rite when a hand is laid on the casket or urn and we commend our loved ones back to God and it is as if one can feel the embrace of God holding them close.

I remind you of these mysteries and the many, many more we have experienced together because this is the power of God exercised not by me but through all of us together. This is at least part of what Jesus means by living bread, the bread that feeds us into eternal life. God has pulled us into a great communion of saints, into a single, holy loaf which is time and time again held up to receive the blessing of God and shared for the sake of the world.

But as we talk about these beautiful images, we are aware that our hunger does return and we do face death even though we have shared the living bread. Like the Judeans who grumble against Jesus and like their ancestors before them who grumbled about miraculous bread provided daily each morning in the wilderness, we, too, are skeptical. We are skeptical perhaps that we are capable of bearing the divine. We are skeptical perhaps that despite our own faults and those of our neighbors that we can still be church together. We are skeptical that in the face of all the pain in the world these moments of grace are enough. We are skeptical that God can hold us together through change and through conflict and through fear and through pain. We need the bread again and again to renew us and resurrect us.

I think too often we forget – I forget – what a blessed miracle happens here every Sunday. Yes bread is made for us the body of Christ. Water becomes a womb for rebirth. But before the first note is played or the first word is spoken, God is gathering us up, preparing to lift us high and proclaim us holy and make us food for the world.

And it is not our perfection, but rather our brokenness which allows us to become food for one another and bread for the life of the world. It is the ways in which we allow our humanity to be laid out for one another, the ways in which we come to terms with our failings as much as our successes, the ways in which we name our pain, illness, and grief which God uses in this holy mystery. It is the persistence of God’s feeding through times of exhaustion and pain, anxiety and fear, anger and hardship, through death itself that makes this bread the one that feeds us into eternal life.

And so one more time among you I will hold up bread, and I will behold all of you gathered around the table,  and I invite you to see in that bread yourselves gathered up, blessed, broken and given for the sake of the life of the world.

We give thanks for the meals we have shared together and we trust in the God who keeps feeding us again and again. There will be more meals at this table, more moments of holy mystery. There will be more meals at other tables in the years to come. But it is this one meal that connects us, bound together, one body, one bread, made holy by God’s love.

Wherever you find the bread of life in years to come, do not forget this: that you are God’s beloved. That you are precious to God. That no matter what the world says and no matter what you say to yourself, you are a valued child of God. I pray that you know that life-giving truth deep within you when you touch the water, when you eat the bread, when you gather in community together in this place. And I trust that God will keep feeding you with that truth and ushering you into eternal life, now and forever.

-Pastor Steven Wilco

 

 

 

A Taste for Bread

11th Sunday after Pentecost
August 5, 2018 

24When the crowd saw that neither Jesus nor his disciples were beside the sea, they themselves got into the boats and went to Capernaum looking for Jesus.
25When they found him on the other side of the sea, they said to him, ‘Rabbi, when did you come here?’ 26Jesus answered them, “Very truly, I tell you, you are looking for me, not because you saw signs, but because you ate your fill of the loaves. 27Do not work for the food that perishes, but for the food that endures for eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. For it is the Son of Man that God, the Father, has sealed.” 28 Then they said to Jesus, “What must we do to perform the works of God?” 29Jesus answered them, “This is the work of God, that you believe in the one whom God has sent.” 30So they said to him, “What sign are you going to give us then, so that we may see it and believe you? What work are you performing? 31Our ancestors ate the manna in the wilderness; as it is written, ‘He gave them bread from heaven to eat.’ ” 32Then Jesus said to them, “Very truly, I tell you, it was not Moses who gave you the bread from heaven, but it is my Father who gives you the true bread from heaven. 33For the bread of God is that which comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.” 34They said to him, “Sir, give us this bread always.”
35Jesus said to them, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.” -John 6:24-35

**With thanks to Lauren Winner and her fantastic book Wearing GodThe list copied in my sermon below and some of the inspiration for this sermon come from that book on pages 94-95.

What kind of bread is Jesus? As Jesus begins to explain the miracle of feeding a large crowd with only a few loaves and fish, he makes a rather startling claim, the first of the “I am” statements in the gospel of John. Before he proclaims “I am the light of the world, the good shepherd, the true vine, the resurrection and the life, the way, the truth, the life,” Jesus says, “I am the bread of life.”

Which makes us wonder just what kind of bread Jesus might be. Pastor and author Lauren Winner wondered just that and posed the question to a group of people she was meeting with regularly. And they came up with this list, which she records almost as if it is a poem:

A bagel

Rye

Toast with jam

Morning glory muffins

Chocolate tea bread

Rosemary ciabatta

My grandmother’s sourdough

My grandmother’s challah

French toast

A crusty baguette

 

What do you think the bread of life tastes like? What bread do you crave right now?

We make a lot of the fact that Jesus identifies himself with an essential food that more or less exists in every culture around the world. From naan to tortillas to injera to mantou, the list goes on. It’s a basic staple, in many cases one of the most affordable and available forms of sustenance. Jesus identifies with the basic food that helps us survive. It’s the bread we need to exist. We cannot live without it. It’s part of the reason we don’t generally just grab any old food to share at the communion table – we are remembering the essential, life-giving Jesus.

But we also remember that life is more than sustenance. The kind of life that Jesus brings is more than just enough, more than getting by, more than just the basics. If Jesus comes to bring abundant life, than daily bread, the bread of life, is about more than just keeping us alive.

For those who have been ill, hardly able to eat, sometimes the bread of life is just a saltine cracker, something so easy on the stomach that it can be tolerated by those who can’t keep anything else down.

For those who have been lonely the bread of life might be a loaf of banana bread baked by someone just for them, brought over and shared along with conversations.

For those who are grieving, perhaps it is the family dinner roll recipe that has been passed down to a new generation that brings both comfort and tears to the surface when eaten around a holiday table at which some of our loved ones no longer sit.

For those who have denied themselves food out of shame or anxiety, the bread of life might be a rich pastry finally eaten with joy instead of fear.

For those who have just run a long-distance, a stale bagel at the finish line can feel like the bread of life.

Sometimes the bread of life tastes like freedom after years of oppression, like truth-telling in the midst of secrets, like a moment of relief from chronic pain, like a word of grace to someone bearing the weight of guilt. Maybe, as in the first reading today, for someone like Bathsheba, assaulted and widowed by a powerful man, the bread of life is that God notices and cares, even though real justice is never achieved. The bread of life tastes like life offered even in death.

Whatever the bread of life tastes like for you today, I can imagine God standing in the kitchen, apron on, kneading the dough or carefully layering butter into a pastry crust, flour drifting up to God’s hair and dough sticking to holy fingers, preparing just what we need for the day and all the while singing a little tune and remembering each of us, the memories of who we are and how God has taken delight in us.

Jesus’ claim in today’s gospel is more than just bland sustenance, and more even than making sure each person is fed. The claim Jesus makes is about the kind of abundant life we all hope for and the way in which God is working to make it happen.

But, too, we remember that we do not ask God to give me mydaily bread, that instead God teaches us to enjoy the bread of life in community with one another and that in offering us this bread of life God invites us to become bread for the world ourselves. Fed and nourished, we are sent out again. We are empowered to serve so that all might have their daily bread. And like the bread that Jesus provides, we are not all just the same. Each of us is formed and shaped and flavored differently. Each of us has particular gifts that that help feed others, both literally and metaphorically. Each of us has something the world needs. Each has a gift to offer.

And this, too, is part of how God responds to our pleas to “give us today our daily bread.” God calls us together into communities where we become bread for one another. This is who we are as church, called to offer ourselves and our gifts for the sake of feeding others even as we are fed. That’s the gift of church. That’s a gift I cherish as a pastor – the ways in which we have been for one another the bread that keeps us going, the bread that shows us abundant life. This congregation has always needed the many and varied gifts of all the people who are a part of this community, of all the people who have been here and helped sustain this ministry over many decades and of all the people who come even for a brief moment to worship in this place. That is always true, and yet this time of pastoral transition is a time that will make it more clear the ways in which everyone is needed to help the ministry continue to thrive and to serve and to share the love of God with one another and the world.

This community will continue to feast together. And God will continue to feed you the bread of life. But in feeding you, God will also use you to feed others. So as you receive communion today, it will be the same wonderful, homemade bread baked just for this assembly that we share every week. But imagine as you taste it that it takes on the flavor of just the bread you need to receive today. And then as you go from the table, begin to imagine what flavor you might offer to this community and this world, that you may also begin to realize the ways in which God has called you to be part of feeding the hungry world.

-Pastor Steven Wilco

Unfinished

9th Sunday after Pentecost
July 22, 2018

11Remember that at one time you Gentiles by birth, called “the uncircumcision” by those who are called “the circumcision”—a physical circumcision made in the flesh by human hands—12remember that you were at that time without Christ, being aliens from the commonwealth of Israel, and strangers to the covenants of promise, having no hope and without God in the world. 13But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far off have been brought near by the blood of Christ. 14For he is our peace; in his flesh he has made both groups into one and has broken down the dividing wall, that is, the hostility between us. 15He has abolished the law with its commandments and ordinances, that he might create in himself one new humanity in place of the two, thus making peace, 16and might reconcile both groups to God in one body through the cross, thus putting to death that hostility through it. 17So he came and proclaimed peace to you who were far off and peace to those who were near; 18for through him both of us have access in one Spirit to the Father. 19So then you are no longer strangers and aliens, but you are citizens with the saints and also members of the household of God, 20built upon the foundation of the apostles and prophets, with Christ Jesus himself as the cornerstone. 21In him the whole structure is joined together and grows into a holy temple in the Lord; 22in whom you also are built together spiritually into a dwelling place for God. – Ephesians 2:11-22

1Now when the king was settled in his house, and the Lord had given him rest from all his enemies around him, 2the king said to the prophet Nathan, “See now, I am living in a house of cedar, but the ark of God stays in a tent.” 3Nathan said to the king, “Go, do all that you have in mind; for the Lord is with you.”
4But that same night the word of the Lord came to Nathan: 5Go and tell my servant David: Thus says the Lord: Are you the one to build me a house to live in? 6I have not lived in a house since the day I brought up the people of Israel from Egypt to this day, but I have been moving about in a tent and a tabernacle. 7Wherever I have moved about among all the people of Israel, did I ever speak a word with any of the tribal leaders of Israel, whom I commanded to shepherd my people Israel, saying, “Why have you not built me a house of cedar?” 8Now therefore thus you shall say to my servant David: Thus says the Lord of hosts: I took you from the pasture, from following the sheep to be prince over my people Israel; 9and I have been with you wherever you went, and have cut off all your enemies from before you; and I will make for you a great name, like the name of the great ones of the earth. 10And I will appoint a place for my people Israel and will plant them, so that they may live in their own place, and be disturbed no more; and evildoers shall afflict them no more, as formerly, 11from the time that I appointed judges over my people Israel; and I will give you rest from all your enemies. Moreover the Lord declares to you that the Lord will make you a house. 12When your days are fulfilled and you lie down with your ancestors, I will raise up your offspring after you, who shall come forth from your body, and I will establish his kingdom. 13He shall build a house for my name, and I will establish the throne of his kingdom forever. 14aI will be a father to him, and he shall be a son to me. – 2 Samuel 7:1-14a

When I was 6, we moved to a newly constructed house, and throughout the process of building we visited, sometimes sneaking into the construction site – fascinating for kid and adult alike to see how the house was coming together. To imagine a home first on top of a big hole in the red clay dirt. Then to imagine it on top of a concrete foundation. Then to imagine walls where there was only framing, then to imagine what things would look like once it was all finished even though it was still a drafty construction site. Finally, after what seemed a very long time to a six-year-old, the house was finished and we could move in. But the neighborhood wasn’t yet finished, so for a year or so after we moved in I had a construction site just beyond our backyard – lots of fun to be had even by bookish 6-year-old who wasn’t overly fond of playing outdoors. There is something exciting about the process of building – of watching something come together, of imagining how it will look when it is finished, of the dramatic changes that happen, perhaps even the possibility that it could still be significantly altered and changed as the process evolves.

Of course much that was exciting happened in that house as I grew up there, and there certainly was work my parents had to do to keep the house maintained throughout the years we lived there. But the house itself was basically done, and the upkeep was mostly about sprucing up a room or adjusting the garden here, fixing something broken over there. Those projects lacked the excitement of the building process.

Today we read about King David, now settled in his own house, one we might presume has been built rather well and richly. But he’s itching to build again. Maybe it’s out of genuine love for God, or maybe he just misses the excitement of a good building project, but he tells God it’s time to build God’s house. Even the prophet, the religious advisor to the king, the one who speaks God’s message, even he thinks it’s a grand idea: honor God with a proper temple.

But, as is often the case when we make decisions about what God wants and what we will do for God, God has other plans in mind. God speaks in a vision to the prophet to say that it is not for David to build God a house. God kicks that can down the road at least to the next generation. God seems to be in no real hurry to settle down. God takes the role not of the one who dwells in a house but the role of one who builds one. The Holy Construction Worker promises instead to build David himself into a house, a promise extended and opened up to all the nations in our reading from Ephesians:

“So then you are no longer strangers and aliens, but you are citizens with the saints and also members of the household of God, 20built upon the foundation of the apostles and prophets, with Christ Jesus himself as the cornerstone. 21In him the whole structure is joined together and grows into a holy temple in the Lord; 22in whom you also are being built together spiritually into a dwelling place for God.”

God’s house will be the one God builds out of David and his descendants and all the people that are welcomed into that ever-growing house over the generations. There is a sense in the original language if not in the particular translation we read today that the building is not a finished project. I think it’s because God likes the excitement, possibility, and playfulness of the construction. God, after all, built a world and then continued to tinker with it, co-creating with us new things all the time. God called a single family to bless and be a blessing and then kept opening that family up to wider and wider circles. God assured the world of new life through Jesus but also invited us into the ongoing work of sharing that life with the world.

But we are too often King David, ready to settle down in a finished house. Don’t we like to think of ourselves as finished products? As if we do, or at least should, have everything figured out. We sometimes hold ourselves and others accountable to standards that expect us to be finished houses instead of works in progress. We are, I think, too often afraid of learning the really hard lessons, engaging the really deep work, of changing as we grow, admitting we still have work to be done on ourselves. We ask young people what they want to be when they grow up but we expect adults to have it all figured out. If we began to think of ourselves and those around us as ongoing construction projects, might we find more gentleness in ourselves when we judge our actions and experiences andthose of others?  Would that give us permission to be learning together all the time?

And if we do it to ourselves, we do it with our institutions, too. We tend to want, even when we talk about growth and mission, a stable church. One that has been builtrather than one that is being built. A built church is one that is safe and comfortable. A built church is one that doesn’t require ongoing effort to maintain. A built church allows one to enjoy the fruits of the labor of those who have gone before us without expending the same level of effort. It’s nice to be in a built church, or so I would imagine. I’ve never been in one. I’ve only ever attended, visited, and studied about churches that are being built. Of course there are plenty of well established churches with built buildings and even big churches that run more programs than you can imagine like a well-oiled machine. But I don’t know of one that’s done growing and changing. There are only churches that are in the process of becoming.

As this community experiences continued changes as we look to hire new staff and as I prepare to begin a new call and you prepare to welcome new pastoral leadership, we are reminded that we are not a built church. We are not a church that is finished, but rather one that is always being built, always learning, growing, changing. That requires investment of resources – time, money, energy. It requires teamwork and imagination. It requires attention to the structure that holds the community and vision for what might yet be. And as wonderfully fun as that can be, it can also be tiring, unsettling, and just plain hard.

But know this: the foundation is Jesus Christ. Whatever evolves in this living, breathing, growing, unfinished church is built on as solid a foundation as one can find. I don’t know what the finished project looks like, and none of us will till the whole creation is resurrected and renewed. But what we can do is take delight in the building process. To live into the twists and turns that emerge, the things that have to be dismantled and reassembled to make way for some new part of the design. And we are set free to be gracious with one another as we do that, because we know the foundation and we know the builder. We know them to be faithful. We know them to be wise and strong and compassionate. We know our God to be building us in ways that bring forth a home for all life in our living, breathing, growing, unfinished world.

-Pastor Steven Wilco

Finding the Real Party

8th Sunday after Pentecost
July 15, 2018

14King Herod heard of [the disciples’ preaching,] for Jesus’ name had become known. Some were saying, “John the baptizer has been raised from the dead; and for this reason these powers are at work in him.” 15But others said, “It is Elijah.” And others said, “It is a prophet, like one of the prophets of old.” 16But when Herod heard of it, he said, “John, whom I beheaded, has been raised.”
17For Herod himself had sent men who arrested John, bound him, and put him in prison on account of Herodias, his brother Philip’s wife, because Herod had married her. 18For John had been telling Herod, “It is not lawful for you to have your brother’s wife.” 19And Herodias had a grudge against him, and wanted to kill him. But she could not, 20for Herod feared John, knowing that he was a righteous and holy man, and he protected him. When he heard him, he was greatly perplexed; and yet he liked to listen to him. 21But an opportunity came when Herod on his birthday gave a banquet for his courtiers and officers and for the leaders of Galilee. 22When his daughter Herodias came in and danced, she pleased Herod and his guests; and the king said to the girl, “Ask me for whatever you wish, and I will give it.” 23And he solemnly swore to her, “Whatever you ask me, I will give you, even half of my kingdom.” 24She went out and said to her mother, “What should I ask for?” She replied, “The head of John the baptizer.” 25Immediately she rushed back to the king and requested, “I want you to give me at once the head of John the Baptist on a platter.” 26The king was deeply grieved; yet out of regard for his oaths and for the guests, he did not want to refuse her. 27Immediately the king sent a soldier of the guard with orders to bring John’s head. He went and beheaded him in the prison, 28brought his head on a platter, and gave it to the girl. Then the girl gave it to her mother. 29When his disciples heard about it, they came and took his body, and laid it in a tomb. – Mark 6:14-29

It’s easy to paint Herod as the enemy for this party he throws. Here’s a political ruler who employs violence and the power of the state at the whims of a family member bearing a grudge. A ruler who clamps down on someone at least tryingto speak the truth in a world that desperately needs to hear it. A ruler whose power is threatened by the success of a few itinerant preachers who have something to say about his ethical standards.

He throws a party for himself. It seems a lavish affair with excess of food and wine. Children are employed for the entertainment of adults. Herod, drunk or foolish or both, promises anything his daughter wants. Her mother employs for her own violent purposes the child, who becomes again a pawn in a twisted game of the adults. But Herod must please and entertain the guests, so against his better judgment (which is admittedly not that great to begin with) he serves up John the Baptist’s head on a platter. And so the party continues.

It’s easy to point fingers at Herod and his gang. But let’s consider for a moment that there might be parallels that we have come to accept. Rulers in our own country and abroad whose sense of power is easily threatened by truth- tellers. Public debauchery normalized and even celebrated. Parents and others who exploit their children. Children used as political pawns and in the process exposed to violence that shapes and scars them. Those who speak out and those who live on the margins silenced and too often killed. This is the party we are forced to attend.

And it is also the party we chooseto attend and sometimes even the one we choose to throw for others. Our inner demons well up violence of word and deed in us. Our greed and our fear too often shape our decisions. We settle for voices that feel powerful even if they are not truthful. We choose to please others even when it silences our own voices and the voices of others. We use others for the accomplishing of our own ends. We participate in the manipulation of the vulnerable through systems that oppress and marginalize, and sometimes we do it directly.

The thing is, most of us don’t really want to be at this party. We recognize at least some of the problems for what they are. We know it and regret it when we discover ourselves taking the lead. We simply don’t know how to find a different kind of celebration. It takes a great deal of courage to make a new path.

Perhaps it’s because in this party we all seem stuck in, people aren’t valued as human beings. Their inherent worth isn’t taken for granted. It’s easy to see that in the egregious violations Herod makes, but the longer we stay at this party, the more we become accustomed to the devaluing of human lives, the more we start to doubt our own belovedness, the more we lose touch with our own inherent value. The disregard for human life calls our own sense of self into question.

Curiously for a gospel reading in worship, Jesus does not appear in this part of the text. Jesus is not at this party. Jesus is off somewhere else at a different party. He’s in farming and fishing territory teaching and preaching and healing and welcoming. He’s sharing his power with twelve rag-tag disciples, who, miraculously, go out to teach and preach and heal and welcome, too. This is a party Jesus is throwing for everybody else. It’s a party at which the broken and sick are given first priority. It’s a party at which violence – that done by people and that done by disease and poverty – is healed. It’s a party in which the promises made are about love and compassion.

But it can be hard to go join Jesus’ party when we have too long believed ourselves only worthy of the violence and destruction of Herod’s. It can be hard to find the courage to join that new kind of celebration. And even more courage to start that kind of celebration on our own. And this story reminds us that even when we do start Jesus’ kind of party, the Herods are likely to serve our heads up on a platter before too long because this other way of being, this other way of valuing human beings, this other way of transforming the world threatens the power and stability of Herod’s way of life.

And yet this is exactly the calling of the church – to keep throwing a Jesus party Sunday after Sunday and then to take it out into the streets in between.To serve at an open table the very life of Jesus. To invite all people in toward the life-giving center. To sing, and, yes, Lutherans, maybe even clap and dance, not as those at Herod’s party but in ways that respond with joy and gratitude for God and for one another. To listen to hard truths that have the capacity to reshape us to be more open, more welcoming, more affirming of our own value as human beings and to recognize that value and belovedness in every other human being. It’s a challenging task, one we sometimes meet and sometime fail to meet.

But Jesus does not just sit around waiting for people to realize which party is ultimately more life-giving. As Herod’s revelry carries on Jesus is busy with the disciples teaching and healing and driving out the things that are robbing the community of its life and livelihood. And then he takes the party right into the center of Herod’s celebration. Not in this scene, but soon enough, Jesus leads the way into Jerusalem. Jesus goes to the seat of the local political and military power, the outpost of the empire. He doesn’t wait for them to catch on; he goes right into the middle of it. Into the exploitation, the violence, the greed and corruption. And they do to him what they do to John the Baptist. They kill him off.

But that won’t stop Jesus’ party. Because when they kill Jesus he just goes to round up the dead to join the ranks of partygoers and comes back, alive, along with them right there in the middle of Herod’s celebration. And then the Jesus party keeps marching on. Right down to you and me. Right here, where Jesus has promised to show up – in the word and water, in the bread and wine. Jesus has come into the midst of our hurt and hurting, into the midst of our empires and corruption, into the midst of all the things we’ve done and left undone. And throws us that party all over again, until we feel deep inside us the worthiness God bestows on all life, until we are so overflowing with that love and compassion that we can’t help joining the party after all, and throwing open our doors till all the world can join us.

-Pastor Steven Wilco

 

 

 

Letting It Go

6th Sunday after Pentecost
July 1, 2018

Some days it’s all we can do just to keep it all together. Trying to keep the plates spinning in the air while juggling some flaming arrows and doing an Irish jig. Sometimes it’s the normal stuff of life. Sometimes it’s the world that seems to be falling apart around us. Sometimes it’s really terrible, life-changing stuff that is simply beyond our control. But our culture tends to prioritize keeping it all together. At least look like you’re doing ok. Keep your honest emotions to yourself, and don’t ask for too much help.

Jesus’ time wasn’t really that different in some respects. They lived, as we do, in a fairly ordered society. Separated social classes with different privileges. Different rules and social roles for people of different genders. In a sense, keep within your assigned boundaries. Don’t go transgressing beyond your place. Keep it all together.

Imagine then this respected elder, the leader of a synagogue, come to put himself in the position of beggar at Jesus’ feet. The sense of desperation, the sense that he can no longer hold it together watching his daughter suffer to the point of death. He comes desperate for a miracle to the man who is already starting to draw the disdain of the established religious community. But the boundaries that governed his daily life were set aside when it got to the point where he could no longer hold it together.

But on the way to heal the daughter, Jesus encounters another in need of healing. And here we should note that in Jesus’ time they had another boundary about certain illnesses and even natural bodily functions. Basically, the rule was keep your insides inside. Skin conditions like leprosy, anything with oozing sores or oozing anything could make you ritually unclean in religious and social terms. Anything where the boundary between inside and outside seemed to get blurred. Women were unclean for a set number of days on a monthly basis, so imagine this woman with uncontrolled hemorrhaging for twelve years. She is desperate. Her body is literally unable to hold itself together in ways that society deemed normal and appropriate. And the social consequences have her falling apart. So she throws out the boundaries between ritually clean and unclean and between women and men in order to approach Jesus with the faith that just touching him could heal her.

Two stories of Jesus being approached by boundary crossers, people whose lives are falling apart, people who can no longer keep up the charade of everything being ok. People whose mess is spilling out all over the place. And Jesus’ response? If you’ve been following along in the gospel of Mark to this point, it will come as no surprise: Jesus transgresses the boundaries to bring healing and wholeness. Jesus goes to the sick child to lay hands on a little one who is not of social importance despite her father’s position. And on the way, when he is touched by the woman of deep faith, he not only seeks her out to speak with her transgressing the gender boundaries, but even more deeply, his own healing power flows out of him uncontrolled. He becomes, if only for a moment, like the woman who for 12 years had no control over what was going on with her body. He is unable to keep his insides inside. God’s healing flows out of him, uncontrolled. Jesus takes on the same kind of boundary transgression the woman has been experiencing, and healing occurs.

God refuses to keep it all together for the sake of a dying child and a suffering woman. Neither of their names are recorded for history. Yet in their own way they both draw out from Jesus not just the power of healing and not just the power of crossing boundaries, but also the power of letting compassion flow freely. Jesus lets himself be interrupted. And beyond even his own control his healing power flows from him.

So what word does this speak to us, to people who too often try to keep it all together? I wonder that it might be a challenge for us to let our boundaries be a little more permeable, to let a bit more of our insides out, metaphorically at least. Because it is in doing so that the opportunity to be healed and the opportunity to offer healing emerges.

Maybe we could start in our church communities. I’ve said this before, but I know I still struggle with it myself: what if our church communities were places we really let ourselves fall apart, or at least a place where we stopped having to pretend we’re keeping it all together? I see it happen sometimes – tears that begin to flow, fears and worries that can no longer be kept silent, even anger that bubbles up. But all too often I worry we’re trying to hold it in. Keeping that boundary for self-protection is one thing, but keeping the boundary so that others aren’t uncomfortable isn’t what Christian community is really about.

But maybe we could start doing it other places, too. Like at our national borders. What if we began to see those borders not as impermeable boundaries, but rather a marking line that helps us organize laws and governing structures for the flourishing of all people but which allowed people to come and go with more ease? How might our current news cycles be different if we considered the ways in which God’s very body in Jesus refused to keep a firm barrier to the flow of healing and compassion.

Or maybe we can just try to cut ourselves some slack when we just can’t keep it all together and remember that Jesus couldn’t either. And it took a ritually unclean woman, a desperate father, and a dying girl to help us see it, to help Jesussee it. When we are falling apart, when the world is falling apart, when we don’t even know anymore whether our insides are in or out, God’s compassion cannot stay contained. God doesn’t keep it all together either. And it’s in that, in God poured out, flowing out for us and for all people, where we find healing and grace. It’s in letting ourselves fall apart into God’s mercy and love that we find ourselves made whole again.

-Pastor Steven Wilco

Propelled from the Stillness

5th Sunday after Pentecost
June 24, 2018

35When evening had come, [Jesus said to the disciples,] “Let us go across to the other side.” 36And leaving the crowd behind, they took him with them in the boat, just as he was. Other boats were with him. 37A great windstorm arose, and the waves beat into the boat, so that the boat was already being swamped. 38But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion; and they woke him up and said to him, “Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?” 39He woke up and rebuked the wind, and said to the sea, “Peace! Be still!” Then the wind ceased, and there was a dead calm. 40He said to them, “Why are you afraid? Have you still no faith?” 41And they were filled with great awe and said to one another, “Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?” -Mark 4:35-41

For years as a kid I simply refused to get on roller coasters. I was too afraid. It was too high. It would not be fun to plummet at high speeds toward the ground only to be flung back up again. Until one day I finally got up the courage to try one. I remember nervously standing in line, and then once strapped in the fear built and built and built as the car ticked slowly up the track. And then the moment of pause between up and down, as if even the air stopped moving around us for a moment. And then the rush of the descent. At once terrifying and exhilarating, disorienting and thrilling. And for years I rode them every chance I could get. Every time that fear building, the pause between up and down, and the rush of the ride that followed. The fact that one is always a little afraid when hurtling along a track crashing toward the earth only to be flung up again is part of the excitement. If there wasn’t a little fear it wouldn’t be that thrilling.

It seems to me that the disciples have a similar experience on the sea. This is still early enough in the story that they have a healthy fear and awe of Jesus, and they aren’t quite sure about his request to suddenly cross the sea (lake really) of Galilee. Jesus falls asleep on them and a storm suddenly begins to churn the water. The boat is about to be swamped. The fear is building and building, terrified of what might come. Stuck in a place they cannot get out of. When they wake Jesus, he rebukes the sea, and the wind ceases immediately. It is as if there is not a single particle of air moving, not a person makes a move. Not calm, but a heightened awareness of a moment of great power. Does that moment between up and down last a split second or several minutes, no one is quite sure. And then, though the wind and sea remain calm, the disciples are suddenly flung into a new reality. This rabbi they have chosen to follow commands the very forces of nature. Healing people is one thing, commanding the spirits another, but speaking a word to the sea and it obeys, they have realized they are on a much wilder and perhaps more thrilling ride than they had signed up for.

We often tell this story of the disciples on the sea as one that moves from fear to faith. As if before the disciples didn’t trust Jesus to keep them safe and afterward they did. As if things were rough but then Jesus made things calm and comfortable and nice. But I don’t think that’s what this story is about at all. This is a story about the way in which Jesus has the power to transform both our fear and our faith. When the storm suddenly blows in they are afraid. Afraid for their lives. But they also believe Jesus can do something about it. They have faith. Like most of us who consider ourselves people of faith they probably didn’t really know how they wanted Jesus to fix what was threatening them, they just cried out in desperate hope that he could do something. And after the first moment of stillness, comes a new kind of faith, not just in a distant God but a God infused in the wind and water, the very elements of daily life. And a new kind of fear, not of drowning in the sea but a holy awe, a thrilling yet terrifying realization of the God who has called them into this adventure. Bringing them across the seas to new shores, to new places where God’s grace will bring healing and life through them.

So maybe this isn’t a story about getting faith, but about the ways in which God moves us from a kind of paralyzing fear to the thrilling and sometimes terrifying awe of God’s peace-infusing mission in the world. Perhaps it’s a story of the ways in which God calls us to cross the barriers that keep us and the whole world from that exhilarating if scary opportunity to live into God’s call. Jesus saves them from the storm but sends them careening toward the cross and to opportunity after opportunity to throw themselves into the fray for the sake of God’s healing and restorative work in the world.

It’s the story that some people tell of entering recovery as addicts. Drowning not only in the storm of substance use, but in the internal storms that rage underneath. Hitting a moment of clarity or despair, and then the awesome fear of living into that new-found freedom, and that ongoing, difficult work of living into a new life of recovery. A new life of trusting a God who can silence even the wind and the waves.

It’s the story of some people who finally find their true calling after drowning in work they couldn’t find meaning in but were terrified to leave behind. And then finding the possibility of living into some new direction, some new hope, some new source of meaning. And it’s terrifying to start over, to try something untried, but exhilarating to live into that kind of holy fear of trusting in a God who can silence even the wind and the waves.

It’s the story of some people who have came out of the closet as gay, lesbian, bisexual, or transgender. Not all, but some have found themselves drowning in societal shame, in fear of losing those that love them, afraid to be put out of their families, their workplaces, and their homes. And thank to many communities that provide safe haven and welcome, they have found a new life, not always easy, sometimes a bit frightening, but as a bold witness to their trust in a God who can silence even the wind and the waves.

I wonder, then where we today find ourselves beset by storms, beset by wind and waves that hold us in paralyzing fear. Our nation is drowning under policies that tear children from families at the border. We all are at risk of drowning, in some cases literal drowning, from climate change. All of us are in danger from the endless storm of racism and xenophobia that shapes our world. We are in danger of being torn apart, of being lost in the storm. It overwhelms us. We beg for Jesus to wake up.

But when that moment of calm comes in the midst of the storm, when we finally find ourselves in stillness, when that fear is momentarily silenced and we see with greater clarity, we best be prepared for the way in which that moment of stillness is about to launch us into a new kind of holy awe and a new kind of working for peace and calm for all people and all creatures and all things. And we ought to be prepared for the ways in which it will bring us more deeply into relationship with the one who is powerful enough to command even the forces of nature.

That is the prayer we speak and the prayer we sing and the prayer we eat and drink today. A prayer for peace, for calm, for an end to the storm. And a prayer that we might be sent, held safely by the God of the cosmos, into storm-defying work in the world.

-Pastor Steven Wilco

 

 

 

But It’s Also About You

4th Sunday after Pentecost
June 17, 2018

34Samuel went to Ramah; and Saul went up to his house in Gibeah of Saul. 35Samuel did not see Saul again until the day of his death, but Samuel grieved over Saul. And the Lord was sorry that he had made Saul king over Israel.
16:1The Lord said to Samuel, “How long will you grieve over Saul? I have rejected him from being king over Israel. Fill your horn with oil and set out; I will send you to Jesse the Bethlehemite, for I have provided for myself a king among his sons.” 2Samuel said, “How can I go? If Saul hears of it, he will kill me.” And the Lord said, “Take a heifer with you, and say, ‘I have come to sacrifice to the Lord.’ 3Invite Jesse to the sacrifice, and I will show you what you shall do; and you shall anoint for me the one whom I name to you.” 4Samuel did what the Lord commanded, and came to Bethlehem. The elders of the city came to meet him trembling, and said, “Do you come peaceably?” 5He said, “Peaceably; I have come to sacrifice to the Lord; sanctify yourselves and come with me to the sacrifice.” And he sanctified Jesse and his sons and invited them to the sacrifice.
6When they came, he looked on Eliab and thought, “Surely the Lord‘s anointed is now before the Lord.” 7But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him; for the Lord does not see as mortals see; they look on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.” 8Then Jesse called Abinadab, and made him pass before Samuel. He said, “Neither has the Lord chosen this one.” 9Then Jesse made Shammah pass by. And he said, “Neither has the Lord chosen this one.” 10Jesse made seven of his sons pass before Samuel, and Samuel said to Jesse, “The Lord has not chosen any of these.” 11Samuel said to Jesse, “Are all your sons here?” And he said, “There remains yet the youngest, but he is keeping the sheep.” And Samuel said to Jesse, “Send and bring him; for we will not sit down until he comes here.” 12He sent and brought him in. Now he was ruddy, and had beautiful eyes, and was handsome. The Lordsaid, “Rise and anoint him; for this is the one.” 13Then Samuel took the horn of oil, and anointed him in the presence of his brothers; and the spirit of the Lord came mightily upon David from that day forward. Samuel then set out and went to Ramah. – 1 Samuel 15:34-16:13

26[Jesus] said, “The kingdom of God is as if someone would scatter seed on the ground,27and would sleep and rise night and day, and the seed would sprout and grow, he does not know how. 28The earth produces of itself, first the stalk, then the head, then the full grain in the head. 29But when the grain is ripe, at once he goes in with his sickle, because the harvest has come.”
30He also said, “With what can we compare the kingdom of God, or what parable will we use for it? 31It is like a mustard seed, which, when sown upon the ground, is the smallest of all the seeds on earth; 32yet when it is sown it grows up and becomes the greatest of all shrubs, and puts forth large branches, so that the birds of the air can make nests in its shade.”
33With many such parables he spoke the word to them, as they were able to hear it; 34he did not speak to them except in parables, but he explained everything in private to his disciples. – Mark 4:26-34

 

The reign of God isn’t about you. And, also, the reign of God is all about you.

It’s not about what we want or what we accomplish. It’s not about our success, even in important matters. It’s not brought closer or accomplished faster by our wit, our power, our money, our committees, or our will. We pray “Yourkingdom come. Yourwill be done.” We pray that because at the end of the day it’s not really about what we want, which is just as well since sometimes what we want isn’t so great.

And yet the reign of God is all about us. Not just because God welcomes us all into the new creation God is establishing and not just because God loves us allinto resurrection. It’s all about us because despite the fact that we don’t have the power or even a pure desire for the reign of God, over and over again God chooses us to be the ones who bring in that very reign. God chooses to work out that new creation using ordinary, flawed people.

We are reading this summer about the kings of the Hebrew people long ago.  Kings God advised them wouldn’t work out very well, but Kings God nonetheless called and walked beside and used for the work of God. They certainly weren’t perfect, and yet God used every one to shape and mold the trajectory of salvation. King David, anointed in our first reading today, was an overlooked youngest son, too young at the time to even be considered as part of the process. And he didn’t turn out to always be the most moral man in the world – more of those stories to come in future weeks of lectionary readings. Yet he became famous in the history of the Hebrew people and the archetype for prophets and kings to come, Jesus included. God chose David, I think, not so much because David had it all together, had all the right skills, or was the most righteous, but because he was the one – the forgotten and ignored one – through whom God wanted to do that particular part of bringing in the reign of God.

That’s what Jesus’ farming parables are about this week, too. The first is simply about how seeds grow into plants. The sower puts down the seeds. Perhaps normally there would be some tending and watering. But the growth of the seed into a plant does not require the sower to be present. Even the best gardeners can only support and tend, setting up the best conditions for growth. They do not technically make something grow. To you who have poured your lives into tending the work of God’s reign of justice and peace in one way or another, in your professional or personal arenas, and who long to see that work grow into its fullness, take heart: God is responsible for bringing in the new creation and God is using your work in that bigger endeavor. And all of us might take heart that the fullness of the harvest is promised and it will be enough to feed the world. It’s about God’s work. And it’s about God giving you a part in that work.

And the mustard seed, too. The kind of mustard shrub that grew prolifically like a weed in Jesus’ time, was not a magnificent sight to behold. It was not one of the cedars of Lebanon with a mighty trunk that loomed over everything below it. It was a mess of different stems and branches. A messy and overgrown thing, with no clear central trunk and no particularly grand display to the world. Which made it a perfect shelter for all manner of living things. This, Jesus says, is the reign of God. No one twig or leaf and not even a single stem or trunk if you could even call it that on a mustard plant, sheltered anything, but as each piece grew as part of the whole shrub, homes were made for birds and rodents and insects, and who knows what else. It’s not about any one part of the plant, and yet each part of it contributes to the whole which creates the shelter – all gardened not by a farmer but by God.

This is what God is doing – calling us, employing us, leading us in the work of bringing in the new creation, and yet reminding us that no oneof us can bring in the kingdom and none of us can do it by our own power.

I think this speaks to the disturbing news that has been ongoing but finally seemed to capture national attention this week about the separation of more than 11,000 children from their parents at the border, sometimes in violent, rough, and sudden ways. These are in many cases people exercising their international right to seek asylum. They have committed the equivalent of a misdemeanor offense and often they are looking to turn themselves in for protection. And the leaders of our country are using the Christian scriptures to justify it, much to bafflement of many of us who are reading those same scriptures. Every major denomination, including our own, has condemned the practice and yet it continues. Ultimately it’s God’s work to bring the world beyond the conditions that create refugees and to create a world without national borders and without racism and tribalism and whatever else is at play here. And at the same time each of us has a role to play in that work. God chooses to work through small things and small actions and through people who don’t seem all that powerful to create the reign of God. I hear in our readings today the prodding to open our ears to the calling of God that we might figure out what our part might be in changing even just this one devastating barrier to the reign of God. Your phone call, your protest, your prayer will not alone change the course of this atrocity, but the work God is doing to transform this situation needs all of us to be a part of the work.

But beyond this moment, beyond this very important but specific issue, we struggle with this tension all the time. We hope and pray for God’s will to be done and trust that one way or another it will be. That sometimes leads us to throw ourselves into the work and other times to become complacent trusting someone else will do it. Churches, including our own, wrestle with that all the time. How can we be the kind of church that grows from a tiny seed into shelter for many? It’s God’s work, and yet each one of us is essential to the way in which God chooses to bring that work about. Each one of us has gifts that God chooses to use, and we are all the better for it when we try to listen for that call to use them.

The seeds for the growing reign of God have been planted in us. They are sown in us in all manner of ways, and God will bring them to fruition. The harvest will be abundant. In the growth there will be shelter for those who need it. And we, tiny seeds or tiny branches that we may be, are made part of this grand and sprawling reign that is already sprouting among us.

– Pastor Steven Wilco

Blasphemy, Despair, and Jesus

Third Sunday after Pentecost
June 10, 2018

[Jesus went home;] 20and the crowd came together again, so that [Jesus and the disciples]could not even eat. 21When his family heard it, they went out to restrain him, for people were saying, “He has gone out of his mind.” 22And the scribes who came down from Jerusalem said, “He has Beelzebul, and by the ruler of the demons he casts out demons.” 23And he called them to him, and spoke to them in parables, “How can Satan cast out Satan? 24If a kingdom is divided against itself, that kingdom cannot stand. 25And if a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. 26And if Satan has risen up against himself and is divided, he cannot stand, but his end has come. 27But no one can enter a strong man’s house and plunder his property without first tying up the strong man; then indeed the house can be plundered.
28“Truly I tell you, people will be forgiven for their sins and whatever blasphemies they utter; 29but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit can never have forgiveness, but is guilty of an eternal sin”—30for they had said, “He has an unclean spirit.”
31Then his mother and his brothers came; and standing outside, they sent to him and called him. 32A crowd was sitting around him; and they said to him, “Your mother and your brothers and sisters are outside, asking for you.” 33And he replied, “Who are my mother and my brothers?” 34And looking at those who sat around him, he said, “Here are my mother and my brothers! 35Whoever does the will of God is my brother and sister and mother.” – Mark 3:20-35

What causes you deep despair? What causes you to lose all hope? What causes you to lose your faith in God?

Is it the magnitude of human suffering in the world? The devastation in Puerto Rico, the economic, political, and otherwise violent unrest in Central America that sends people fleeing homes to begin again in a land that refuses to welcome them? Is it the persistence of racism and the violence against black and brown bodies? The oppression and subjugation of peoples and the exploitation of others for personal gain or pleasure? The weight of the world’s pain is enough to crush us some days.

Or is what causes you to despair a shadow that consumes you alone? The intense grief of loss of someone who held a part of your own heart? The haunting of addictions? The cloud of depression? The overwhelming onslaught of daily responsibilities? The pain of illness and decline? The sense of having failed in ways that hurt oneself and others? Sometimes our own lives crush us to the point of despair.

There was all manner of speculation in this week’s news about what kind of despair led fashion designer Kate Spade and celebrity chef Anthony Bourdain both to take their own lives this week, what it was that led them to become part of a growing number of people who turn to suicide. Whatever the reasons, it strikes me that people who finally feel they have no other option have reached a point of despair which is beyond what can be born in the human mind and body. It’s as if they have been cut off from the power of life, as if they cannot see the possibility of God’s renewing them this side of the grave.

Let me pause to say that if you find yourself in such a place now or at anytime in the future, there are people ready to help, people ready to listen, people willing to stand with you in the place of despair. My door is open, this community is here, and, if not, there are well-trained people available through local and national hotlines. Your life is valued and precious.

As I read today’s gospel, I have this deep sense that in the midst of this tense conversation Jesus is grieving for those who are in deep despair, those who cannot see the ways in which God is already among them restoring life, that his whole being is longing for them to be able to see the hope and possibility of God’s resurrection in this life and to come. Jesus has just been healing people, casting out demons, and calling ordinary people to holy things. There is already early in this gospel a sense of God’s kingdom unfolding for the world. But Jesus’ family tries to restrain him and the scribes come down to call him names and label his healing and transforming work as of the devil. And however frustrating, I think Jesus has compassion on them.

His words can seem harsh in response. And maybe to some degree he means to be a bit harsh with the people who hold power over others, sometimes oppressive power, over others but who in their own power and privilege fail to recognize the power God has to transform. That can be a particularly disastrous combination – having influence and control but unable to recognize when God is doing something new. We see it in kings and rulers, just as God predicted for the Hebrew people demanding a king, but if we look closely enough we probably see it in ourselves, too, the ways we sometimes take our despair, our inability to see the power of God at work, and turn it outward in spite or anger at others who seem to be able to see that very hope we long for. But ultimately I think Jesus feels sorry for them, for theirinability to see God at work, for the kind of despair they must feel as a result.

And I worry that we could miss Jesus’ compassion and get caught up in Jesus’ statement about an unforgivable sin. Far too many people have speculated about blasphemy of the Holy Spirit, and in tragic ways used it in ways that blame and oppress and bring pain to others. But in this context, in which the scribes and even Jesus’ family, fail to recognize the incredible transformation of God taking place among them, it seems to me this sin against the Holy Spirit is the failure to see the work of God and recognize it as what it is – the beginnings of resurrection.

And who among us hasn’t failed to recognize God at work? Who among us hasn’t called something in our own lives or out in the world the work of the devil only later to realize it was the beginning of God’s transformative power at work? Who among us hasn’t had at least a moment of deep despair in which we could not believe in the power of God to bring us back from the brink of death, literal or figurative?

I think it’s not so much that Jesus is condemning these people as Jesus is naming how in the place of utter despair it feels irredeemable and it feels cut off from eternal life. To reach the point of such deep despair or such failure to recognize the possibility of God’s turning things around, is to feel disconnected from the eternal source of life. And I have to think that Jesus has compassion even on the ones who keep standing in his way, because he wants to leave no one behind in that place of despair that place of failing to believe in the power of God’s transformation.

And the reason that’s clear to me is that already in these early chapters of Mark’s gospel we see Jesus headed to the cross. We see in this moment Jesus already moving toward the place of utter despair. We can see on the horizon Jesus going to that place of deep pain and suffering, the place from which he cries out “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?!” Jesus in all his human fleshiness goes to the place of death and there, falsely accused, abandoned by nearly everyone, suffering and dying, commits this same blasphemy, this same failure to hope, this same inability to see God’s transformation taking place. He joins the ranks of all humanity whose suffering leads to despair that seems beyond redemption. He joins the temple scribes who call him names when they cannot see God present in his work. He joins the many who despair beyond hope. And he joins them all the way to death.

But then God is not done. The source of eternal life, the source of life itself in all its fullness, has life yet to give. The moment of despair, the moment that seems irredeemable, the moment in which we can no longer see hope ahead, opens to a morning of resurrection. It opens to Jesus alive again and setting free from their graves all the people who have experienced deep despair and reconnecting them with the life they could not find in themselves. God’s victory over death breaks through even that which seemed before to be unforgivable, breaks through what we could see only as a place of deep despair.

And that is what we proclaim today, what we eat and drink at the communion table today, what we go forth from this place to proclaim in the world – that the power of God’s life beyond time and place is more powerful than anything we can imagine. It has the power to overcome our failure to see, our failure to hope, our failure to live. And it brings us over and over again in this life to the kind of eternal living that is part of God’s transforming the whole creation into something new.

-Pastor Steven Wilco

Letting Sabbath Fall In

Second Sunday after Pentecost
June 3, 2018

23One sabbath [Jesus] was going through the grainfields; and as they made their way his disciples began to pluck heads of grain. 24The Pharisees said to him, “Look, why are they doing what is not lawful on the sabbath?” 25And he said to them, “Have you never read what David did when he and his companions were hungry and in need of food? 26He entered the house of God, when Abiathar was high priest, and ate the bread of the Presence, which it is not lawful for any but the priests to eat, and he gave some to his companions.” 27Then he said to them, “The sabbath was made for humankind, and not humankind for the sabbath; 28so the Son of Man is lord even of the sabbath.”
3:1Again he entered the synagogue, and a man was there who had a withered hand. 2They watched him to see whether he would cure him on the sabbath, so that they might accuse him. 3And he said to the man who had the withered hand, “Come forward.” 4Then he said to them, “Is it lawful to do good or to do harm on the sabbath, to save life or to kill?” But they were silent. 5He looked around at them with anger; he was grieved at their hardness of heart and said to the man, “Stretch out your hand.” He stretched it out, and his hand was restored. 6The Pharisees went out and immediately conspired with the Herodians against him, how to destroy him. – Mark 2:23-3:6

According to Anne Lamott, there is a “Hasidic story of a rabbi who always told his people that if they studied the Torah, it would put Scripture on their hearts. One of them asked, “Why onour hearts, and not inthem?” The rabbi answered, “Only God can put Scripture inside. But reading sacred text can put it on your heart, and then when your hearts break, the holy words will fall inside.”[i]

That is a part of what our religious practice is about, why we gather Sunday after Sunday to sing and pray and hear scripture, why we gather in church communities at all. Not because God isn’t out in our daily lives or because God only saves people in the church, but because that practice writes God’s words over and over on our hearts, so that when they break open the holy words fall inside.

But Jesus encounters some people who grieve him with the hardness of their hearts. They have written the holy words all over themselves, but they have not let their hearts break open, or perhaps that Godhas not yet broken them open, so that the words might actually fall inside. They engage in a dialogue with Jesus about the meaning of one of the most fundamental commandments: Remember the Sabbath day and keep it holy. For many it has meant no travel, no picking of grain, no work, even healing work, on the day of rest. They had studied the law. They had interpreted the law. They had written it on their hearts. But it failed to sink in.

Perhaps their hardness of heart is a result of their misunderstanding of this very commandment. You see, God did not create the commandment in order to see if people could follow a rule. God set up this commandment for people who had just been liberated from 400 years of slavery. They hadn’t had a day off in 400 years. This, like all the commandments in one way or another, is a gift. A gift in the very image of God, who also took rest from the rhythm of creation. God created us and liberated us for the sake of rest.

This rest wasn’t about sitting still in church from sunup to sundown. It wasn’t about being somber or strict. It wasn’t about cracking down on weekend sports leagues creeping in on church time. On the other hand it wasn’t meant to be naptime, or a free-for-all, or a chance to get oneself into trouble either. It was intended as the kind of rest that restores wholeness to a person. The kind of rest that restores the spontaneous creativity and generative power that was shared with us by the one who created all things. The kind of rest that puts one back in touch with the person we were created to be in the first place, that puts ourselves back in touch with our identity as beloved of God.

This is what Jesus is busy doing on the Sabbath day. He’s walking and talking with his friends, eating along the way. He is doing what they need to restore themselves for sharing the good news of God’s reign come near. And in doing so they embody the reign of God, they embody the Sabbath of liberation and rest. They are not only resting so they can do more work, they are resting because resting is part of the world God created and the world God wants to restore.

But Jesus is not done. Because when he arrives at the synagogue, there is a man with a withered hand. A man who has not had a rest from his illness or injury in who knows how many Sabbath days. A man who perhaps has trouble working to feed himself and his family, who lives with that burden 24/7. So I suppose one might imagine he could have waited one more day for Jesus to finish his day of rest, his leisurely journey and his stop at the synagogue to have the word of God written again on his heart.

But when Jesus sees the man with the withered hand, his heart breaks open. And that word of God falls in anew. That word of rest and Sabbath and liberation. It is not a true Sabbath until it is Sabbath for everyone, liberation for everyone. Even though we must for the sake of our own lives find days and times of Sabbath rest and so participate in the reign of God, we cannot truly experience Sabbath until workers earn a living wage for their labor, enough to feed and shelter and provide health care for their families, until every person has the opportunity to take a day off without going hungry. We cannot have a true Sabbath until the workers who make our standard of living possible are treated fairly and justly, free of unsafe working conditions and discrimination. We cannot have a true Sabbath until the people seeking asylum at our borders find safe haven. We look at the world around us and our hearts break open and the word of God falls in. Then we find ourselves, with Jesus, unable to rest easy until this liberation takes place.

It’s not that the Pharisees are so hard-hearted that they don’t ever want this man healed or that they want people to go hungry because they didn’t get enough food ready for the day of rest. They just think it should wait its proper time. In a way they, too, want to bring about the kind of world that lives in God’s rhythm. But they’re so caught up in trying to write the law on their hearts, that they’ve failed to allow their hearts to be broken by the pain of the world, by the pain they carry themselves.

But in this scene it is in Jesus that God’s heart that breaks open at the pain of the world, and the gospel of Sabbath pours into the world. And healing takes place. A man who has been hurting enjoys Sabbath for the first time in ages. People are drawn into the reign of God. And perhaps ourhard hearts and the hard hearts of the Pharisees soften at that, just enough to let them crack open and let the words of God’s love and life, the words of Sabbath rest and liberation that have been written on our hearts drop in and fill us anew and welcome us to that place where new life can begin to grow in us and in the whole world.

-Pastor Steven Wilco

[i]As shared by the Rev. Lauren Carlson in her blog post for Modern Metanoia: https://modernmetanoia.org/2018/05/21/proper-4b-the-law-of-grace/

 

Uh-Oh

Holy Trinity Sunday
May 27, 2018

1In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, high and lofty; and the hem of his robe filled the temple. 2Seraphs were in attendance above him; each had six wings: with two they covered their faces, and with two they covered their feet, and with two they flew. 3And one called to another and said:
 “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord of hosts;
 the whole earth is full of his glory.”
4The pivots on the thresholds shook at the voices of those who called, and the house filled with smoke. 5And I said: “Woe is me! I am lost, for I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips; yet my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts!”
6Then one of the seraphs flew to me, holding a live coal that had been taken from the altar with a pair of tongs. 7The seraph touched my mouth with it and said: “Now that this has touched your lips, your guilt has departed and your sin is blotted out.” 8Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I; send me!” – Isaiah 6:1-8

For God loved the world in this way, that God gave the Son, the only begotten one, so that everyone who believes in him may not perish but may have eternal life. Indeed, God did not send the Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. – John 3:16-17

Listen here to audio of today’s sermon:

“You are a child of God, sealed by the Spirit in your baptism, and you belong to Jesus Christ forever.” And the newly baptized two-year-old responded: “Uh-oh.” This was the scene described some years ago by former publisher of The Christian Century, John Buchanan. I’m sure everyone laughed. For better or worse people love to get a chuckle out of the honesty of children, especially in church. But the response of the child was, in Buchanan’s words “an appropriate response…a stunning theological affirmation.” An appropriate response to being claimed in love by the creator of the cosmos.

This is essentially the story of Isaiah the prophet. God claims him and calls him. And like anyone with any good sense he says “Uh-oh.” Or probably something more explicit which was later washed clean into the words we read today: “Woe is me!” “Woe is me! I am lost, for a I am a man of unclean lips and I live among a people of unclean lips.” There is holy fear here. A recognition that the confrontation of God with broken humanity will utterly destroy Isaiah. He knows full well the stories of people before him who have tried to touch the ark of covenant, God’s throne on earth, who perished immediately. He knows one does not approach the creator of the universe for a casual chat. And in a sense that is true. The mystery of God is so beyond human existence that confronting even a vision of it breaks us apart.

But what Isaiah is still coming to realize is that God isn’t interested in destroying us. Breaking us open, yes, but not destroying us. Part of Isaiah’s internal question, I think, is whether God really does love the world in all its uncleanness. Can you really love this world, God? Can you really love me? And I suspect we live with the same underlying questions. When we say God so loved the world, we tend to think about the nice world. Beautiful flowers, delicious meals, nice people, happiness, communities without conflict or division. And we often explicitly or implicitly assume that God loves the people who love God back or at least those who do God’s work in the world. And of course God loves all that.

But what Isaiah is about to be overwhelmed by is that God loves all the other stuff, too. God loves the dry and uninhabitable wastelands, the dark and frightening depths of the sea. God loves burnt potroast and wilted flowers, cranky people and communities where there is conflict and division. God loves people who don’t have time for God or who outright despise, reject, or refuse to believe in God. God loves the whole world – this whole world just as it is – in all its uncleanness. God loves everything we fail to love. God loves what we consider unlovable, especially when the one we fail to love is ourself.

We stand with Isaiah, people who try desperately to do the right things. People who love our neighbors near and far, people who love one another the best we know how, who try to live out our baptismal call to the world. But we are no match for the kind of love God has for the world, for the kind of love God has for us.

I think Isaiah fully expects to die when he meets God in this vision, because in confronting love that can overlook literally anything, Isaiah realizes his own incapacity for that profound love. And it tears him apart. He sees in God his own failures, not just to live up to the law, but his own failure to extend love beyond bounds. He recognizes how utterly necessary to the existence of the world that kind of love is and thinks that he cannot remain a part of the creation with his incompleteness. Believe it or not, this “uh-oh” moment is grace. This realization that God’s profound love holds the world together and simultaneously breaks apart our notions of who we are.

But here’s the thing. Isaiah isn’t utterly destroyed. God spares Isaiah. More than that, God transforms Isaiah into a prophet. One of the seraphim touches a burning coal from the altar fire to his lips to burn them clean, to sanctify the words he will proclaim on God’s behalf. But the story doesn’t really get better as far as Isaiah is concerned, because this is not going to be an easy message to proclaim. There will, yes, be beautiful words of comfort to speak from God, words that millennia later we still cherish and set to music and read in worship and at the bedside and with grieving families.

But if we had been reading along from the beginning of Isaiah’s record we would see that God has some really, hard things to say to this deeply beloved world. When God calls Isaiah in this mystical vision of the throne of God that the assignment isn’t a cushy one. In fact, it will put Isaiah at odds with all manner of people. It will cause him to confront again and again his incapacity to love the world with the same kind of love that God does.

And God says, “Whom shall I send with this message for the beloved world, this message of hope in the midst of utter desolation?” For the second time in this short moment Isaiah thinks he’s going to die. He Isaiah looks around. He sees no one else standing there. And he says, “Uh-oh.” Or “Woe is me!” Or something else more explicit. And then, perhaps more as a fact of his being the only apparent choice than as a grand assent to this mission, he says, “Here I am. Send me.”

And he goes. He goes to proclaim to a people lost and confused the profound grace of God. Doing so requires some hard truths to be spoken. It requires profound commitment to a vision of what might yet be possible from the midst of destruction. But Isaiah has himself already experienced confronting death in the face of God and lived. So who better to go and proclaim that to the world?

Dear friends, today you are invited to stand in Isaiah’s shoes. I cannot promise that God’s call to you will result in canonized scripture or that your name and words will be remembered for generations. But today the full presence of God is promised to us in worship. As we prepare for the Eucharistic meal together, we will sing the song the angels sing around the throne: “Holy, holy, holy is the Lord of hosts; the whole earth is full of your glory.” Then as we gather around the table we will again be confronted by the profound love of God. We will experience there, in ways we can touch and taste, the love of God for the whole world and for us. It breaks us open. It reminds us of our inability to love beyond bounds. And it loves us back to God. It is the coal from the altar that burns our lips, transforming us again into God’s body on earth. And we are sent with that same message of hope beyond hope, of love beyond love for a world that has forgotten how to love itself the way the creator intended all along. And, “uh-oh,” it is through us that God’s love is shared far beyond the bounds of what we think possible.

-Pastor Steven Wilco